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Time:07:17 pm
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       this is my last ever entry. . why you may ask? cuz i am just so over this livejournal thing, unlike some other bitches. ahem brinn and belle ahem. . .

         so that's a wrap i guesss . . later guys
                                   xomeliss

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Subject:whatever
Time:09:06 pm
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hahah if any of you who are reading this know who brinn westbrook is -

SORRY

her post is so crap. look i AM pissed at her because she is a drama queen, spoiled brat, and thinks she is better than everybody else. what CRAP.

i haven't posted because I DONT FEEL LIKE IT so fuck you. schools coming so i'm just enjoying summer... okay? goddd people are so annoying.

whatever _ melissa

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Subject:still pretty depressed ):
Time:12:05 pm
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i havent written in a while because i just havent felt like it frankly

schools starting unfortunately. that pisses me off. i had to get my books for school today at 10. dad took me and ali. reading all the titles i realized sophomore year isnt going to be easy.

mom is still away. i havent seen her since that night. we dont talk about it. ali is obviously very disturbed but i dont know what to say to her. i wish i could make everything better but the fact of the matter is that everything is irrevocably fucked up.

i havent seen anybody and dont want to see anybody. my eyes are always puffy, i have a huge stress pimple, im pale, and ive lost 9 pounds because i have no appetite. the only person i would feel like seeing is maybe alex but shes off in marthas vineyard. olivia is naturally still living it up in europe with brinn. jess is home but no offense i dont really want to talk to her. we're not that close.

yeah so thats my super sucky life.

- melissa

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Subject:what the fuck??
Time:10:20 am
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i haven't been able to write here because.... i am so fucking pissed

okay here's what happened.. i was doing my summer reading last time i wrote. i actually decided to do it so i could get it over with, you know? anyway the next day we picked up my dad from the airport and went out to a nice dinner. it's really great when he's home because he makes sure mom isn't too tyrannical. we got back to the house, i went up into my room and called belle in france. we were having a fabulous convo until mom comes stalking into my room. she started SCREAMING at me about how i am turning into paris hilton and not giving a damn about anything else but designer clothes. she says that i better get off the cell phone and do my schoolwork which is more important than getting a manicure. i NEVER let mom yell at me especially when she's full of crap. i reminded her about the fact i get A's in every subject along with play field hockey, basketball, and tennis. i also reminded her that i was student council secretary and that this is my summer vacation so could she please cut the bullshit and let me talk to my friend. she blew up and started screaming extremely hurtful things at me that i don't really feel like sharing. she took the cell phone from me and slammed it onto the floor. she said that i don't appreciate what i'm given and that i am disgracing the family by being such a "socialite".  i seriously don't know where this came from. i actually started to cry and then daddy came in and started yelling at her and told her to leave me alone. she finally left and he gave me a hug but i still felt like crap. after that i locked my door and hid in my bathroom crying. i called alex and she wanted to come over and talk to me about everything but it was probably a bad idea. after that i got into bed and kept waking up but i didn't get up. at like three i finally got up and went into my bathroom. i felt so sick from crying that i wasn't even hungry. i locked the bathroom door and talked to alex more. i wondered if mom would even come in to apologize but that's not how she operates. i heard constant yelling coming from downstairs but it's like that every day. alex kept saying she would come over but i didn't want to have to open the door. she had to go to a tennis lesson so i decided to just go back into bed. i heard knocks on my door but i knew they couldn't get in. i finally just went to sleep but i heard more yelling so i woke up. i hadn't eaten in like 32 hours but i wasn't even hungry. ally finally knocked on my door. i let her in then locked the door. she snuggled into bed with me like she used to do when we were younger and just kept reassuring me that i was the best sister ever. i started to cry again but because i was feeling like a jerk for being mean to her. she went back into her own room and then i decided to take a shower and figure out what to do after that. i really wanted to go to alex's house. i dried my hair, put on makeup to hide my puffer eyes, and then put on my favorite juicy sweatsuit. i called alex and she said she was home so i managed to sneak over to her house. her parents were out by the pool so i snuck up into her room. she blasted her stereo and we hid in her bathroom. i don't really want to share everything we talked about because it's all really private stuff. i don't even know if i should be sharing all THIS info with everyone. alex made me feel better. she told the cook to make smoothies and then we ate them. i felt less sick with smoothie so she gave me two to take home and hide. i had to go home after that because alex's family was going to a party. i got into my room without seeing anybody and locked the door again. i basically just sat around and sipped smoothie. i went online a little but i wasn't in the mood. i did cry more. i fell asleep again. i don't really remember how long i just lay there and cried. i woke up again the next day around 10. i heard more knocks on the door but i just lay there really still. i didn't even want to talk to ally. daddy said it was him. i told him that if mom was there i wasn't responsible for my actions. mom wasn't there and he locked the door behind him. he told me that he doesn't agree with a word mom says. he also told me that he and mom have been having many differences and that they are getting a divorce. the way she treated ally & me was unacceptable. by this point, i was actually happy. daddy told me that his work was based here so i could live with him and go to school and everything. i nodded and he told me that i could come downstairs because mom was gone but i didn't want to. i called alex and we talked more about the divorce.

i stayed up in my room. i couldn't write before because i was in such bad shape. i still am. i still dont why mom said those things to me. my life is pretty much fucked up for good. i need to go downstairs to eat but i still feel like i'm going to throw up if i eat anything. i dont want to see anyone except alex maybe. i don't know whats going to happen i seriously dont.

alex thanks. i can't tell you how much everything you did for me means. i love you so much. your my best friend in this entire world.

- melissa

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Subject:woooweeee
Time:10:06 am
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had a fabulous day with jessie and alice! we finally got reunited because my aunt came over and mom was in a good mood...

we had a fabulous time walking through the neighborhood. mom ditched us to go shopping with auntie teresa, taking her porsche. and it was the chauffer's day off,  so we decided to do the unthinkable- we walked for 3 miles into civilization...wearing kitten heels, stilettos, and platforms. it was a very interesting experience especially when we had to walk through the ghetto...lol these scary guys were hittin on us and calling us barbie and stuff. it was way annoying. we finally got into town and then got manicures at the salon and jessie got diamond chips put in. they looked really cute on her tips! not tacky whatsoever! after that we went to go get an iced latte at starbucks and then the big shopping began. we hit the biggest boutique first. it has everything in it - lacoste, juicy, lily pulitzer, gucci, prada, kate spade, burberry, etc. jessie bought a blue lacoste, alice bought a juicy terry jacket, and i got a pink lily pulitzer polo. i don't have many of those, so i was happy i got it (:

after that, we hit a few other stores, but they didn't have anything good. we had to walk through the ghetto again so we ran as fast as we possibly could in three inch heels/platforms/kittens, microminis, while carrying lattes and shoppiung bags. the guys werent there but these kids looked at us funny. we finally got back to my house and decided to go for a swim in the pool. after that, mom came home, they ate dinner with us, and then they went home.

that was my day ! now i'm stuck doing summer reading. i hate our school. i wish i went to the ghetto schools. they don't like have books, right? ughh i lied i would never sit in those seats there but our school is so fucking hard! i hate private prep schools. ughhhh

call the cellular if you <3 me
X's n O's - love you loads
meliss *

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